on looking for a sliding-scale therapist in New York City

but it is too much to look because the thought
of finding threatens that void vacuum taut skin
feeling, again. and this is the office, a haven of
spreadsheets and white-out and the inexplicable
four-square ball on the conference table, a chart
of your four colors, primary, sometimes it helps
to count. sometimes water. sometimes a call
to say nothing, just checking on dinner plans,
not that you have any, though you could, could
make plans, the calendar segregated neatly
into squares you diligently fill, highlight, code
against empty, against time. are there three
primary colors or four? red, yellow, blue, a little
looking gives subtractive primaries, when colors
are produced by subtracting light, as in printing,
or when mixing colors from a paintbox, data to
derail the mind from its mad track, its insistent
circle or spiral, or away from finding the
Psychotherapy and Spirituality Institute or
Pamela Saunders, LCSW, PhD, ABD,
psychotherapy and psychoanalysis
for artists and creative people
but let’s face it, crying on reading
the article on How to Be Happy
in your mother’s Real Simple magazine
is not a good sign in terms of mental stability
here’s a quiz 16 simple questions that may help
identify common symptoms there are additive
primaries, when colors are produced
by adding light, as in TVs and computer
monitors, red, green, blue if you would just
call someone or give up caffeine or start
hitting the gym again do you have
difficulty concentrating do you sleep
more than eight hours a night do you
feel the need to shift positions often
get up and pace do you feel a
loss of interest or pleasure in activities
that were once enjoyed the colors
that correspond to tickling each type of cone
in the eye separately are the cone primaries, or
fundamental primaries, extreme red psychedelic
aquamarine extreme purple approximately
five percent of the population of the United States
suffers from major depression average age of onset
is about 40 years old can we spell Sexton or Plath
Woolf Baudelaire O’Keefe Balzac Faulkner Fitzgerald
Hemingway Shelley Eliot Keats between 65
and 70 percent of depression goes untreated artistic
people are often unwilling to get their depression treated
for fear that it may destroy their ability to be creative, although
whether or not this is so has not been proved or maybe it’s
the calendar the four-square ball the spreadsheet, perfect
portal sections Alice’s looking-glass the fortuneteller’s
crystal ball maybe extreme purple should be called extreme
violet. but violet insists pale, and the daytime moon is full.


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D. Falk, D. Brill & D. Stork `Seeing the Light' (Wiley, 1986).
Overview of Clinical Depression Copyright (C) David Joffe 1998


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